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I don't know why my mind's been clouded by incessant negativity these days.
Some days I literally... want..
to.
kill.
myself.

I don't know why.

Maybe because I haven't been doing the healthy things I've been doing before,
maybe because the school and its people had tired me and drained me,
maybe because I haven't been able to enjoy roller derby or exercise because of my knee injury,
maybe because I'm beginning to hate my body again,
maybe because I have people around me who hurt me without even realising it at all,
maybe because I'm severely broke because of a stupid mistake,
maybe because I'm not entirely sure on who, or what I really am,
maybe because all these things and some other personal things just amount to a colossal ball of negative energy.

Even my teachers have noticed a change, it sort of feels like secondary school all over again.
Even so, I'll get pass this.

I hope I do really soon.