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I've noticed that lately I've been exploring the more spiritual side of myself,

I'm guessing it's part of my endeavour to further find myself,

and I haven't felt this way before. 

I came across this Sufism quote a few months back,

"Whatever you are seeking is seeking you."

There's a sense of peace knowing that whatever I'm looking for, 

is looking for me too. And when that happens it would be one hell of a journey,

not just a destination.

The truth is, I honestly feel like this course isn't for me, since the "drive" is no longer there. 

I have tried my best to find something I am completely in love with, 

but somehow nothing feels the way I think it should, if you know what I mean. 

I like advertising and marketing communications, but I'm not in love with it.

I'm not giving up though, two semesters left and I'll graduate with a Diploma 

in Mass Communication with a mediocre (or maybe slightly above average) GPA (hopefully), 

and then I'll go on to try something else. I hope I have time though.

I just know I am not going to grow up working everyday for a job that I don't even enjoy.

You can say I'm on a journey to better myself in many different areas.

Even in my faith, although I ought to do a better job at it, 

I think the first step should be to love.

Love, with everything inside of you, then everything on the outside would 10x more bearable.

Goodnight.

xx