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It's been a while.

So I have taken a hiatus to explore the depths of my being, to find some kind of enlightenment and serene energy lodged somewhere inside me. It hasn't been an easy journey, the more you look into yourself the harder it gets. If you've been there you'd know what I mean.

It's so easy to lose yourself and hold on to objects of attachment (pain, sadness, wealth, people) and let it cling on to you without realising that it's been dragging you down. You need to realise that these things have never really been a part of you. You may have held it close, but it has always been outside of you. I guess that's how you let go. It's the act of noticing your wholeness and how you still have everything together. It's the act of telling yourself, "Hey, I got this".

You know it's okay to make mistakes. You've heard people say that a million times, you've heard people say its best to make mistakes if you learn from them. Yeah you've heard those things, but have you ever honestly believed it? Quit it. Quit carrying the weight of guilt and regret and trust that you have learnt and dust yourself off and keep moving forward with your chin up. You're a stronger, better person and you sure as hell won't let anyone, who tells you otherwise, get in your way.

Be patient, be gentle, be kind, be in love with everything and everything will be ten times more beautiful than it already is. There is no room for hate or negativity in a heart full of love like yours. In fact, all the love you have inside repels hate, and you refuse to immerse yourself in such dark energy when you deserve light. Everyone deserves light.

Love everything. This is so important it needs its own paragraph. Open your eyes to see the good in everything; all the people who love you, and all the people who have done wrong to you too. The good times, and the bad times. The smooth sailing seas and the bumpy roller-coaster rides. There is always something to love about everything. From cool rainy nights to realising how great of a family you have, even when things are going rough. Everything is worthy of love, especially you.

Also, you're not alone. You are not alone when you dine for one in a restaurant. You may have a book in hand, but that's not the only company. Look closer, my friend. Fill up your ears with the sounds all around you; the murmur of distant conversations, the cacophony of all the hullaballoo happening outside. Everyone around you all live separate lives, and yet in some making of the universe, you are collectively living in the space and time. So no, you're not alone. You are never alone.

There, now there is nothing for you to be sad, or angry about. All there is, is you. A you full of love and happiness and peace. It doesn't take too much, all you have to be is you.

With love,
AA