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Lately I've been feeling rather glum for a handful of reasons;

• I have lost track of my workout routine (this has been going on for months, I feel disgusting)
• Relapses (of the disorder I thought was long gone) were becoming increasingly frequent
• It has been almost impossible to be thrifty
• I am seriously financially drained
• I haven't been scoring academically
• My health has been neglected and therefore I've been under the weather a lot
• I haven't been eating right (always either binging or eating too little)
• I (STILL) haven't developed my rolls of film

However it's nothing that's beyond repair! At least, I'd like to think so. The trick to getting by each torturous laborious day is- as cliched as it sounds- staying absolutely chirpy and positive, despite having rude amounts of lemons being hurled at you every retched day. With a little smile and chuckle, you're making a goddamn lemonade river. Imagine the amount of money you'd make! Which is, however, not entirely the point. But you know what I mean. 

During Ramadhan(the fasting month) and Syawal (eid mubarak), I've totally slowed down my workout routine. And sometime within Syawal I went to Chengdu, making it almost impossible for me to workout. Mainly because I didn't feel safe. 

In Chengdu I stayed at an international student's dormitory that belonged to the University of Engineering, Science and Technology of Chengdu. So I tried jogging and working out in the campus stadium too. I'll just say my experience wasn't very pleasant. I hadn't been accustomed to the air pollution and cool weather. Oh, and I don't think I could have ever gotten used to people (every single person who looked at my direction) staring at me from top to bottom. 

Anyway I've been needing to earn some moolah. And since I haven't got the time to get a job, I'm thinking of selling some of my clothes. But I'm not sure if people would actually want my clothes? Tell me what you think! 

Goodnight

xx